Showing posts with label #assworship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #assworship. Show all posts

Saturday, June 25, 2022

Role Reversal - Sort of

On Sunday, I asked my Lady if She would like to experience what She had given me the prior couple of weekends. She has been wanting to experience anal for a while, and I have been hesitant. It's not fair to Her and I am disappointed in myself to failing Her in this way. The difficulty for me is that I perceive the act to be dominant, and my erection fades at the thought. Enter the strap-on. There's no reason I can't wear the thing and give it to Her the way She did me. Well, not quite the same. She fucked me good and hard, and it was clear to me that She enjoyed the dominant role, taking my ass and making me Hers. Me too. The act of Her fucking me also brings Her physical stimulation, rubbing the harness against Her beautiful and engorged Clitoris.

There is no direct equivalent in my case. My use of the strap-on with Her would be as a tool (literally and figuratively) to bring her pleasure. There would be no direct involvement of my actual penis. We kept it locked away in its 3D printed cage. It's a real turn-on for me to be locked and wearing a fake cock for Her to enjoy. It's a game though, because She tells me quite often that my real thing is Her favorite. I have to agree; my cock is warm, firm, and large and it fits perfectly inside Her. We both love it immensely.

I warmed Her up by orally worshiping Her back there for a good long time. There are so many nerve endings in that area, and I know from experience how good it feels. After that, I put some coconut oil on my fingers and alternately inserted my index and middle fingers, slowly helping Her get accustomed to it, and then I used both fingers at the same time. She told me afterward that feeling my knuckles inside Her made Her think that the strap-on would hurt. Not knowing that at the time, I asked if She was ready, and with Her assent I lubed up the pink phallus protruding from the harness, and slowly began inserting it, paying close attention to Her expression and asking how it felt. It turned out that the cock was much more comfortable for Her than my fingers had been. I held still at Her direction, and began to thrust gently when She was ready. We continued in that way, and She started masturbating while I fucked Her. She came intensely and I was extremely pleased.

We cuddled for a bit, and then cleaned up. I remained caged the entire time. I loved the fact that I could focus 100% on Her pleasure. It's unlikely to become the norm, however. As I said, my Lady loves having my cock free for her to suck and fuck. Who am I to argue? 

Thanks for reading.

Jennifer


Wednesday, July 7, 2021

Awesome

My lady is awesome. I love her more deeply than I previously understood possible. 

I will recount some of the things I love about her, but inevitably I will neglect some important facet, because there are more aspects to her magnificence than my mind can retain at any given time.  Let me offer a short story about her.

As near as I can tell, my lady never really had a male figure in her life who treated her well.  I shall not recount the details, but neither her father, nor her ex-husbands gave her the respect and love that she deserves. Her exes had issues. I'll leave it at that. Still, she was able to separate their shortcomings from her own image of self-worth to a large degree. She is intelligent, ethical and strong. Not to mention beautiful, funny and so very sexy.

In spite of all that has been thrown her way, and yes, the choices she has made that didn't work out, my lady has been steadfast in her values. Her moral compass has never drifted. She tolerated unacceptable behavior, but only until she reached the decision that there was no longer the possibility of favorable resolution. She raised wonderful children without the support of a good husband, and for that alone she deserves a Medal of Honor.

You might imagine that, having had that history with men, when we started seeing each other her signal flares might have gone off. Danger, danger, Will Robinson... I disclosed as early as I could reasonably do so the "fatal flaws" that I felt that I carried, namely:

  • Divorced
  • Had an affair
  • Crossdresser

I have made many mistakes in my life. I shall not be defined by them. I have learned from them, and have grown substantially as a human as a result of them. Among my my mistakes was marrying a young lady (when I was a young man) with whom I could not communicate and from whom I grew apart. Having an affair was another one - a big one. I rationalized it, of course, but there's no defending it.  All I can to is own up to it, learn from it and move on. 

So, yeah, that's not a list of attributes a lady looks for in her man. It screams, "run for the hills!!!"  Particularly after the prior experiences she's had. It reminds me of this exchange in "As Good As It Gets" 

            CAROL

Why can't I have a normal boyfriend??? Why? Just a regular boyfriend who doesn't go nuts on me... 

BEVERLY
(butting in)
Everybody wants that, dear -- it doesn't exist...

That's definitely how I have felt - not normal. And I'm quite aware that I'm No. 3 of 3 in that regard in terms of the men who've lined up for her affections.

Except for two things. First, I love and respect her immeasurably. That makes me different than her prior men. Second, my lady makes me feel normal. Actually, she makes me feel exceptional. She makes me feel justified being who I am, how I am, and what I am. She sees the goodness in me (yes, I have good traits, too). She loves me for those traits, and she is learning to accept, and, dare I say, embrace my other "non-traditional" characteristics.

These past weekend was a long and glorious one. I had painted my toenails during the week, and as the weekend approached, chose not to remove the polish. My lady has been aware of my penchant for this, and has seen the evidence; I don't always do a great job removing all remnants. I left my socks on when she arrived, and explained why, emphasizing that I didn't want to push her out of her comfort zone. She smiled and said that she wanted to see them, so off came the socks and another step was taken. She complimented me on the job I did and said I looked sexy. What an amazing woman. Have I said that already?

We had a lot of sex this weekend. I cannot recount the events in sequence or in full detail. Frankly, I was too caught up in being with her to spend time committing it all to memory or writing it down. I remember vignettes, and I definitely remember feelings. I spent quite a bit of time, to my extreme pleasure, worshipping her pussy. I love everything about it, the taste, the feeling, the aroma, and most of all, how it makes her feel. I'm good at it, this I know. I told her that I'd love for her to grab hold of my head and just rub her pussy all over my face, using me to climax, and leaving my face a wet, hot mess that I'd leave unwashed for the rest of the day. We did that. Actually, I got a bit eager and did some of the moving myself. This surprised her, and she released maybe a half cup of pee into my mouth and onto my face, drenching me. It was warm and salty and I loved it. She didn't know that she'd done it until I told her. She was embarrassed and apologetic, until she saw how absolutely rock hard my cock had become. I wore her scent for hours. I could smell her and feel her on my skin after it dried. I felt possessed by her, marked and defined as hers, and I reveled in the feeling. I can't wait to repeat it.

She told me that I wasn't allowed to cum on Saturday, that she was going to tease me and then on Sunday she was going to fuck me with her purple strapless dildo. She had come maybe three times by this point in the weekend, and I was clearing the seven day mark since my last orgasm. I wore the cage a lot, including at a party we went to later.  However, being with her, or even thinking of her when we were apart kept me engorged, and I was a bit concerned about continued confinement in that condition, so I freed myself later that evening. A damaged penis is not good for either of us. 

On Sunday morning, we had a cuddle session that turned X-rated. She rode my cock and I worshipped her pussy.  She whispered how she was going to fuck me and make me hers. I fell deeper into sub-space, and begged her to take me in that way.  For the afternoon session, I spent time preparing myself to be the recipient. I still don't have the best procedure, I think, but I was successful in ensuring that I was clean back there. I went to her room (soon to be our room) while she tended to other things. I secured the restraints to my limbs, and my legs and right arm to the bed straps. When she came into the room, I was wearing a chemise, bunched up to my stomach, slowly masturbating with my free hand, and my cock was rock hard. This turned her on quite a bit. She likes watching me masturbate, and having her watch me is a real turn-on. 

As I believe I've mentioned previously, I have a pretty large cock. It measures between 7.5 and 8.0 inches and is proportionally thick. That is unusual in the general population, from the research I've done, and anecdotally even more rare among submissive, crossdressing males. My lady loves my cock, and the feeling is mutual. She loves to suck it, kiss it and tease it. I love watching her, and the feeling of her mouth on my cock is wonderful. We both love when I'm inside her. This is one of the many ways that we fit perfectly together. My lady had her way with me in these regards, and then she released my leg restraints to gain access to my rear opening. Some tongue action, followed by a lubricated finger got me ready. She started with the pink strap-on, which is a bit smaller. My back door has some work to do in order to accommodate larger objects, but we're working towards that. She had me suck her pink cock for a while before getting into position. I think we both like when she watches me do that. I looked at the combined scene and was struck by how unusual and incredibly erotic it was. My chemise, her beautiful, naked, sexy body poised to mount me, the strap-on harness, the pink dildo, my shaved legs, the restraints on my ankles, and my painted toenails. She entered me carefully, giving me time to adjust to the invader. She started moving in me, and we kissed. I looked into her smoky, eyes and was lost in her beauty.

After loosening me up, she switched over to the strapless one. It's going to take some practice to get the technique down so that it gives her the pleasure we seek for her while she fucks me. We stopped after a while, but made good progress. I want for us both to be able to orgasm when she fucks me. I long for the time when we're living together and she'll say, out of the blue, "go get yourself ready, I'm going to fuck you."  Ooooh.  

She did orgasm, using a combination of my mouth, my cock and her nimble fingers. It was a good one, based on my eye-witness account. She decided that she wanted me to come, and I ended up masturbating while she watched.

On Monday, we had more quality time in the morning as a prelude to a more intimate afternoon session. I had suggested that we spend part of the day taking a hike. To be honest, I was looking forward to that as a highlight of the day. I love being with her in all places, and doing all things. As it turned out, after taking care of things at our respective houses, when I returned to her place, my lady announced that we would not be hiking that day. Initially, I was crestfallen. She explained the timeline we had for the remaining part of the day, and determined that there wasn't time for the hike. I didn't argue, but I did express that I was a little disappointed. There are a few takeaways from this interaction. First, I quickly realized that if I truly meant what I said to her numerous times, i.e. "I'll do anything for you," then that includes abiding by her decision when it's not up for debate. This was one of those cases, and I took comfort in being able to follow her lead without drama. Second, it was really hot outside, so a hike at that time of day would have been somewhat miserable. I was happy that she made the decision and that I accepted it. That would have been true even if it had turned out that we did have time. But she was correct. By the time we did the other necessary things, we'd have been left with the choice of a hike or time in the bedroom. Duh.

Our bedroom time focus was on anal again, but this time she was the recipient. She likes it a lot, and we will be doing more of that. I followed her pattern from the day before, staring with my tongue, then my fingers and finally the pink dildo in the strap-on. She's not ready to accommodate my cock, yet. She wanted to repeat the double penetration scene we did once, but I'm having trouble keeping my cock hard and ready to play in that situation. We used the realistic cock as the second player for her pussy, and she came quite hard that way. We closed out the session with her stroking me for a good long while, until her arm got tired. I loved how it felt, and she's learning how to work me, but we have some more practicing to do. I took over for her, and she whispered into my ear. When she told me how she's going to fuck me regularly, I climaxed intensely. She smiled.

I love this woman, more than words can express.

Thanks for reading.

Jen

Saturday, May 15, 2021

A Fantasy Weeknight

When he heard the garage door open, his heart skipped a beat, and his excitement grew. Even after all this time together, he still found that the highlight of his day was the moment she walked in the door, because he knew that for the rest of the evening, he would have her to himself and could tend to her every need, mind, body and soul. He loved her endlessly, and there was nothing better than being in her presence. She, likewise, loved him more every day, and grew to cherish their particular brand of marriage, though it had taken some time to see herself the way he did. He poured her a glass of her favorite red wine. Everything else was ready.

He had recently retired, but he was by no means idle. He filled his days with a variety of activities, some of which were for his own physical and mental well-being. He exercised, read books and played his guitar at scheduled times each day, finding that a rigorous schedule was still the most efficient method of accomplishing a lot, and he had a lot to do. He spent hours around the house, doing special projects, fixing things and such. He was not so good at regular cleaning, although he was learning how to be better at it and understood the standards that she required. She actually enjoyed cleaning, so it was not a task that she had transferred to him; at least not yet. However, he did most of the shopping, the laundry, and ironing, by now.

She continued to work, not because they needed the money, but because she loved what she did, and she was exceptionally good at it. She loved helping people feel better about themselves, and she loved the social aspect of her job.

Having loved him from the start, it had taken some time for her to adjust to his feminine side. She was not expecting that when they’d met, because he gave no outward indication at a casual glance. Once you see the signs though, it becomes more apparent. His legs and arms were clean-shaven. In fact, as she soon discovered, he was completely hairless below the eyebrows, and even those were trimmed short and somewhat shaped. He had not tried to hide his nature from her, and he unfurled his colorful flag just as fast as he reasonably could, striving to be honest and open while working to overcome his most dreadful fear of outright rejection and abject disdain. You do not begin a relationship by revealing your deepest secrets, that is simply weird.

Now, she knew of his penchant for dressing en femme, and encouraged it because she loved him, she knew that it made him happy, and she understood how the various threads of his psychological fabric were tightly interwoven. Surely, trying to extricate a single strand would jeopardize the entire tapestry.  No, she loved all of him, as he was. He sometimes would spend most of the day as his feminine alter ego if he had nowhere to be. Or if he did venture out, it might be in clothes that were from the ladies’ side of the store, but androgenous enough that no one seemed to notice. In the evenings, he would change his look, matching her preferences. She loved his masculine side, too, and he loved being what she needed him to be. He would wear something more feminine in the evening if she asked him to, which was a rare but not unheard-of occurrence.

He also wore a chastity device at nearly all times. It helped him avoid temptation, and its presence was a constant reminder of how he had surrendered himself to her, physically, emotionally, and sexually.  She now understood that limiting his orgasms led to feelings that he enjoyed immensely, a near constant state of simmering arousal, and deepened submissiveness.  She saw that he was even more eager and creative in finding ways to please her and make her life easier and recognized the mutual benefit of his servitude.

This day, for no particular reason other than to express his love, he set out to make a special evening for her. Pleasant surprises are an important part of a relationship. He did the meal planning and prepared a list of ingredients he required. Having worked as her assistant in the kitchen, he’d watched and learned. To be sure, his skills, knowledge and creativity were the second best in their household, but he was a far better chef than any other non-professional that he knew.

She had been vegan for years before they met, and while he had not been, he did eat a healthy diet, and so it was easy for him to immediately switch. Her amazing culinary skills quickly made him forget what eating used to be like. His realization of the cruelty surrounding animal-based products cemented his commitment to this new dietary routine. He was now vegan. He’d be anything she wanted him to be. Not only because he loved her, but because he trusted her, and he respected her brilliant mind and empathetic heart.

She walked in the door, and he greeted her with a smile, a long and enveloping hug, and a soulful kiss. He took her coat and bag from her and placed them where they belonged. He followed her into the kitchen, where her glass of wine awaited, shadowed by a fresh bouquet of flowers. She smiled and thanked him. Dinner was simmering, the table was set, the animals were fed, and music was playing in the background; there was nothing to do but be with her while she relaxed and unwound from her day.

She sat comfortably on the sofa, and he knelt before her. He positioned a foot basin, filled with warm, scented water just a few minutes prior, slipped off her shoes, and she placed them in the water. He loved her beautiful, sexy feet, as he did the rest of her, and knew that after standing for most of the day that they would be aching. She feared the aroma from a long day on them would be off-putting. He allayed her concerns with this routine of bathing them. While she soaked, he joined her on the sofa. She needed some time to catch her breath after a busy day, and so he just sat next to her, gently holding her hand. He could almost feel the tension of the day leaving her body.

After a few more minutes, he knelt again, taking one foot onto the towel draped across his lap. He dabbed at it until it was sufficiently dry and repeated the process with the other foot. Moving the basin out of the way, he brought out some lotion, and massaged it into her skin, further softening them and chasing away the tension that remained. They made eye contact, and she smiled. She could not tell who was enjoying this ritual more. When he finished, he reverently kissed the top of each foot and replaced her slippers.

They sat together for a while longer, and then she decided it was time to eat. She sat at the head of the dining room table, and he prepared and served their plates, then sat at the side of the table. As they ate, she related the stories of her day. He listened closely, asking questions, filling in the picture in is mind. She commented on the delightful meal that he’d prepared, and he was pleased that she found it delicious. She asked about his day, and he related the various events. She listened closely and wanted more details because she loved him.

Afterward, he cleared the table and set about to clean the kitchen, which did not take long, as he always cleaned as he went while cooking. “I’d like a bath,” she said to him, “tell me when it’s ready.” She went into her home office to tend to some post-hours business. He quickly finished his kitchen task and proceeded to draw the bath. It was a beautiful large free-standing soaking tub that they had installed in their recently remodeled Mistress Bathroom (Master Bathroom was just the wrong term). It could be accessed from all sides, which was perfect for their arrangement. Setting the water to the correct temperature, he added her favorite bath gel. He ensured the rest of the bathroom was neat and tidy. He set the lighting, lit some scented candles, and changed the music to one of her favorite playlists. He put some towels on the warming rack and ensured that her robe was within reach.

He heard her on the phone with a client as he approached her office, and he waited patiently until she finished. “My love,” he called to her quietly from the doorway, “your bath is ready for you.” She looked at him and smiled. She was getting used to his services and starting to accept the fact that she was deserving, but still she by no means took him for granted. “Thank you, sweetie, I’ll be there in a moment.  Why don’t you put on something sexy, and then you can tend to me in the bath?” It was not a question, it was a gift.

He took leave of her to do as she commanded.  He stripped and went to his special closet, choosing a new pink chemise with matching panties that she had not seen before.  As the garment covered his body, he slipped into a deeper state of submission. He padded into her bathroom, and she caressed his silky fabric approvingly. He slowly undressed her, removing her work attire, and then her undergarments. She stood there wearing only a smile, took his hand and allowed him to guide her into the perfectly conditioned water. At her behest, he fetched another glass of wine, and knelt at the side of the tub while she closed her eyes, sipped and relaxed. She had never been more beautiful as he watched her body soak in the warm bath.

“Wash me, now,” she instructed. She tilted her head back slightly as positioned himself at the head of the tub. He used a cup to pour water repeated onto her hair, careful to avoid it running onto her face. Sufficiently wetted, he gathered a dollop of her shampoo and began to massage her scalp and follicles, tending to her with reverence and appreciation for this high honor. Rinsing her, he repeated the actions with her conditioner. Moving to the side now, he took her each arm in turn and gently washed and rinsed them. She laid her head back, with her eyes closed, reveling in his ministrations. He washed her chest, spending more time than necessary ensuring her breasts were clean. They smiled at each other. The stimulation of her nipples always led to her arousal, and this time was no different. She brought his head forward, he suckled her breasts, and she cooed.

She leaned forward and he scrubbed her back. Then he proceeded to bathing her gorgeous legs and feet.  Oh, how he loved to tend to her body. He could not contain himself, and as he rinsed her feet, he gently took each toe in his mouth and sucked them. She watched him, amused, enthralled and inspired. He was performing over and above his expected duties. It was clear that the more she took charge, the more she required of him, the deeper his submission and devotion grew, and the happier they both were.

She reserved the cleaning of her womanly parts to her own hands, in part for hygienic reasons, but also to tease him further.  He watched her ministrations, reflexively licking his lips. She turned over to her knees and had him attend to one final region. He washed cheeks of her sexy backside, and then worked his hands up and down her intergluteal cleft, focusing repeatedly on her opening.  He circled it with his finger and probed inside it. He pushed inside with one soapy finger, and then a second.  He repeated, while listening to her moans of satisfaction.  “Make sure you get me nice and clean there,” she commanded, “clean enough to eat.” He grew firmer in his cage. He had confessed to her is desire to worship her ass with his lips and tongue, and she had thus far declined. It seemed that this night she would grant him the honor. Another step on their journey. He shook with anticipation as she emerged from the bath and he applied the towel to her fabulous female frame. “Go and turn down the bed, place some pillows in the center. Brush your teeth, and wait for me,” she instructed.

He did as he was told, and she came into the bedroom, naked and beautiful. She kissed him and grasped his caged cock and swollen balls.  “If you do a good job worshipping my ass tonight, I might let you out.” He had not needed the extra motivation. This was yet another fantasy, coming true. She laid on the bed, her gorgeous glutes prominently displayed. He knelt behind her, and softly kissed her cheeks, then more passionately. He licked her cleft, repeatedly, long slow flat-tongued movements that heightened their arousal. He parted her cheeks just a bit more and looked at her opening. He knew the term ass-kisser was derogatory. He was now an ass-worshipper. But it was not an act of humiliation or punishment. It was an act of love, on both their parts. A new way for him to demonstrate his limitless love for her, and a new way for her to accept it.

He kissed her opening, gently and repeatedly, with closed lips, both of them getting used to the feeling. Then, without thought, he opened his mouth and kissed her more passionately. She let out a grateful moan, and it inspired him. He kissed her more deeply, more urgently. His tongue flickered out across her flesh. It circled and darted, checking her comfort level. She shifted, raising her ass a bit higher. He pressed further against her opening with his lips.  He stiffened his tongue and probed, pushing past the opening to the vestibule of her most private region. He wiggled it around and she spoke, “oh, that feels soooo nice.” He pushed further and further, until his tongue was as far into her as it could go. He plunged and swirled, kissed and licked, bathed and caressed her opening. She reached one hand under and began to stimulate herself.  He continued his oral homage as she masturbated. He inserted one, then a second finger into her very wet pussy, sawing in and out at a tempo that varied from that of his tongue. She voiced greater and greater sounds of pleasure as her approaching orgasm gathered strength. Then, like a Tsunami, it crashed upon her. He could feel her convulsions on his tongue and his fingers as her muscles squeezed and relaxed in great spasms of ecstasy.

He continued ministering to her, feeding her pleasure, mindful of her own actions. When her orgasm subsided, and he sensed her hand moving away, he withdrew his fingers and his tongue. She lay in post-orgasmic bliss. He hurriedly went to rinse his mouth and brush his teeth, and upon returning, lay next to her, kissing her face, caressing her body, and sharing the joy that she felt. They moved the pillows, allowing her to lay flat and comfortably. He continued his soft caresses, and gentle kisses. He expressed how much he loved her and thanked her for allowing him to worship her in that way. “It won’t be the last time,” she replied. They lay quietly together for a time, and he realized that she’d fallen asleep. He arranged the covers over her body, removed his lingerie, and lay next to her, watching in awe this most beautiful and wonderful lady with whom he had so totally fallen in love. There would be no release for him this night. Still, he had never been happier than at that moment.